I'm feeling optimistic today.
Maybe it was the extra sleep or exercise I've been getting, I can't be too sure, but things just seem to be okay for me. I haven't felt like strangling anyone or swearing at people in cars today. Today was satisfactory.
Today didn't really start out that great. I was having a shower, and right on schedule, EVILBOY banged on the door, wanting me to open his bottle of Cars jelly vitamins. I shooed him away and not even two minutes later, the cat was at the door clawing to be let in. I wished to have a shower in peace. Just once to have a shower where the bathroom gets all nice and steamy and doesn't get let out by a kid who has a vitamin addiction or a cat who is addicted to seeing naked humans. I remember being frustrated (and cold) after EVILBOY went away, trying to open his bottle of vitamins himself after I instructed him not to.
Then I realized that one day I will be able to enjoy a nice steamy shower. I will be able to join that fancy biggest loser challenge at the gym and not have to figure out a babysitter who can watch EVILBOY after 8pm. I will be able to have dinner with my friends without having to ask for a kids menu. I will be able to stay out late at night.
I am a mom. A (single) mom who will one day want nothing more than to be bothered about children's vitamins. I will want to have someone who thinks I am incredible for being able to open a jar of vitamins. I will miss having someone literally look up to me as a person who will keep them safe and a roof over their head and a bed to sleep in.
I will miss watching these stupid cartoons where all they do is have stupid battles. I will even miss that damn perverted cat.
I don't know why it took me so long to realize this. He is growing up so quickly and even though I feel like I am missing out on a lot, everything I have in my own home is much more valuable.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Hello..this is my blog. I bought this fancy theme and I don't know what to write here just yet. Maybe one day remind me I have to write something inspiring here?