30 Days of Truth - Day 14

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Dear Mark,

You are not a hero, but you began as one.  You had the intention to be there, but you chose not to, for whatever reason, and that makes you a failure.  A failure as a role model, a failure as a father, a failure as a friend and as a decent human being.

I even gave you the chance to redeem yourself and to try to explain to me why. I never asked you for anything, even though I suffered without a lot of what I really could have needed growing up.  When I gave you that chance, you ran away again, only this time it hurt a lot more because this time I wasn't a child who needed guidance. I was a woman who wanted to know her real father.

You made me feel like I was too ugly to be your daughter.  I felt like I was not good enough to be a part of your family.

I didn't ask for a thing. I just wanted to know why.

I had other heroes step in and take over for you, and I honestly love each and every one of those people more than you.  Anyone who ever loved my mother (except for Jim the soup nazi), anyone who made her feel like being a single mother was okay.  Anyone who was there for each of my birthdays. Anyone who wasn't you because you don't deserve any more of my time.

I'm angry, but I'm not bitter.  I have a father.  I love him.  I love that even his family has accepted me as one of their own, whereas your family probably forgot I ever existed, if you even ever told them.

So you are not a hero.  You could have been someone I looked up to but you have forever lost that chance.

Way to go jerk face.

-Nikki

PS - Your hair was stupid.


Man, the 80's were a hoot!

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